It’s only natural that most people step aside after you fail in a suicide attempt, and its only logical that you also keep a distance from people that used to be important to you, on one side you feel ashamed cause most of them know what you did and why you did it plus they think that both what you did and why you did it its stupid and they have strong truthful logical arguments. The same thing happens with everything else what once was important in some cases lose most of its importance and in some other loose it completely and you begin to feel more and more meaningless it’s not quite been lost, sad or depressed or wanting to give suicide another try it’s not a wanting it’s more like not wanting to live. It sounds as stupid and pointless as one lives every day… as point less as writing this